I'm off to Narnia

It's been a hard day. I'm not sure why. It's been one of those days where the tears are always just under the surface. At any moment they could come spilling over. Have you had those days?

Nothing has changed. My reality still is what is. Two days from now I will officially be unemployed. That hasn't been true for a long time. I've always pretty much known what was next. But now I have these three little faces that look to me for security...security I don't have right now.

Only I do.

He's just not flesh and bone standing in front of me.

But I know He's there. Watching out for all of us.

I see how a little depravity might benefit my kids. Learning what blessings are really all about.

But at the same time, Casey and I have always pinched pennies. Lately, we've been in a place where we haven't had to be as careful. We've had breathing room. It's been nice.

And now its really tight again.

But he's showing us how we'll be okay.

And I'll be a happier person. A more pleasant person. A better mom. A better wife.

And that will be huge blessing to my kids.

I'll be doing something (though I'm not sure what) that will be more fulfilling for me. Which is good for those for those around me.

Wow. You are a good listener. I feel better already.

Thanks for listening. I'm going to go hug my kids...maybe play a little Narnia on the x-box. And it's not even 5 o'clock yet.